If you have been following me this past week you know that this next sentence just doesn't sound like me, but I am actually going to try and keep this one kinda short and sweet. Well, I am gonna TRY anyway. I have two jobs to deal with in my life. One is my regular 9-5, Monday to Friday job as the Managing Editor for PARENTGUIDE News. The other is more of a part-time thing that takes place two full weekends every month. This is one of those weekends, so I will be heading out the door in a little while. I may have failed to mention that it is a night job. It generally takes me through the entire evening.



That tends to present another problem for me. Because during the hours that I would normally be asleep...I am out driving around Manhattan (and Queens depending on the day)...and at some point I find myself getting SERIOUSLY hungry. Hoo boy...I won't lie to you. In the past I am not always that clear-headed at 3am...and my choices haven't always been the best ones. Of course that is going to change. Especially tonight, for the scale awaits me in the morning! My very first weigh-in. Hopefully I see a good little drop to celebrate my one-week anniversary on the road to self-improvement. By the way, this feeling that I have right now is one I remember from the first go-round too. Even three years later.



It’s that panicky feeling where the destructive little voice in the back of my head asks "what if you don't lose any weight." Or even worse, "what if you did all of this work all week and you GAIN." Yeah, that voice is actually there. I am working on pushing it out altogether. Little steps for now though.For now all I have to do is look over these blogs for a look at the work I have done. Read over the journal I have kept where it says that I have not gone over 2,000 calories in any one day this week. And just standing up and feeling my weary old bones ache because of the walking and exercise I have FINALLY gotten myself back into. I am ready for tomorrow. The voice has been silenced. I say bring on that scale!

Little steps lead to big changes…


Starting Weight – 271 lbs
Goal Weight 199 lbs